It seems that here’s the only place where I can truly say what I feel, when I first saw you, I never knew you will be this important to me, but theres still something that I can’t stand, I can’t be truly happy, or I can’t express how important you are to me, and this is all my fault I know it, but theres something that still tells me that there may be a chance that I can actually feel “NO GUILT. ” yeah, I lost a friend, I don’t know how to handle this, is too hard for mi to “choose” or to talk about this issue with one of my best friend… the problem is that I already lost her.